It is now 5 p.m. and I just came home from the doctors with my husband.  I also see that it has been 5 days since I last wrote anything on my blog.  Oh my… but to be honest, It was all I could do to stay focused and together the last three days.  I have had an emotionally trying and draining week, trying to keep it together emotionally.  I had my moments, had a good cry, of which I believe brings a good release to the heart of pent up feelings and emotions.  It does a heart really good:>)  Along with writing your feelings out and tearing them up, burning them and releasing them.

It helps to move through a situation at hand, however, sometimes if you can’t, if one is willing, like I have been all my life, it may take years, and years, and years in a particular area in order to have a break through or healing. Sometimes I think my issue will never end, or that I won’t be healed! It is a wound that keeps coming back time and time again.  No matter how deep I dig to release this from my being, it’s still there!  It haunts me like a ghost! And then, suddenly, I am lead to someone eles or lead towards a whole new direction and action in my life to take. All I find I need to have is an open mind:>))))))))))) and a willingness that never quits!!!!!

One of the on-going challenges I’ve been experiencing has physically gone on for the last 35 years.  I don’t like to talk about this much, because I’ve worked on it for so long-.  I am hear to tell you that I am still alive and ticking and getting to the root cause.  I have learned to cope and accept my allergies to all the different food I have.  I will continue on, because I must!  I will seek more, and research more, and reach out to those Doctors who I think might be able to help further! You see, in the last 5 years my body has been reacting violently to foods and not getting the nutrient to what I eat.

I have been working with the best Naturopathic Doctor’s around.  And Monday, I will be going to see a new Homeopathic Doctor.  These challenges have been far more heart wrenching than my Cerebral Palsy and Learning Disability.  When I begin to think about this for a minute, it is very painful, it is more painful, and up there emotionally with fighting for my life and my education with my Civil Rights Case , or trying to prove to the world that I am a capable person in doing anything I put my mind towards doing!

But I will survive and get through this just like everything else!  I will!  I really will!

Now that I have spilled my guts…I will close; as I must prepare my dinner.