So Content

For the last week and a half, I have been caring for my husband who has broken his foot in three different places.  Even though he will be in a cast for the next five weeks, I am grateful I have been able to be an example for him.  It warms my heart to see him walking with his crutches, caring items in his mouth, as a third hand, and willing to do for himself!  Willing to go beyond, and, willing to regain his strength and have the fighting spirit which we all must have to keep on going:>)))))))))))

Another Day

Hi all!

I am checking in from another busy day of caring for my hubby:>) Boy, am I ever grateful!  I am so glad that I have the ability to do what I do, otherwise I do not know where I would be.  I am so thankful I have had a fighting spirit all my life and have never given up on myself and kept the hope and faith in my heart, no matter what!

I am going to sign out for now, but thought writing would do me good, and it has:>)))))))))))))

Until tomorrow…

My Personal Battle!

This morning I received the nicest complement a person could get!  It was from a new friend I just met on line.  A very sweet soul who came into my life with angel wings! She not only is giving me her support, but has put one of my writings up on her blog.  How sweet is that- and oh how I appreciate her love, devotion, and kindness!

The truth is, that ever since I can remember, I have been passionate about getting “my life,” Together,  whatever that is:>)))) lol, and giving more that 150 percent to it, in everything I do.  I don’t know any other way.  Weather its dealing with a physical therapy issue, a learning issue, an inclusion issue, an employment issue, what ever the issue was, I have always, always walked the line!  No matter what I have had to deal with, I have always spoken the truth, and given everyone my all weather they could except it or not. I payed the consequences too!

More times than not, the people I confronted, could not handle the truth. Yet I was canned in the way they decided.  Most people could not, and did not know how to cope with the issue or situation at hand or with me personally!  They liked to tastefully turn the tables, put me on the defensive, and make me out to be the bad guy!  And I, I only want to see good for the world, I only want peace and harmony for others, and I only want to share with the world- if I could do it, so could you!
I don’t want favors, and charity!  I don’t want to be treated any differently just because I have a physical disability or a learning disability.  I may need some help.  And I will ask, if I do!  As there is absolutely nothing wrong in asking for those accommodations and in turn, receiving them, fulfilled. And giving it your all! There is nothing wrong in having the same desires as others!  We are all human!  Aren’t we?  Why then should we be looked at any differently?

I do not think society ever dealt with a human being just like me before!  A free spirit, a rebel with a cause, a person who has hope, dreams and desires, and whats to help others not have to go through what I had to go through!  And to see those dreams accomplished.  I am a person who is willing to go the extra mile, who is willing to take on the system, to not only see equality for herself, but equity  for others!  I want to see and bare witness to fairness. I want to bare witness to justice being made for my kind.  It doesn’t matter to me what your disability is- lets learn to help each other and work in unison.  “One for all,… and… all for one”  This way all  of us can have an opportunity and chance to have our wants, need, and dreams met.

We are not animals to be lock in cages.  We are not extra ammunition or surplus to be shot rounds at.  And, we are not criminals!  We are human beings desiring the same things in life that”NORMAL” people have a chance at daily.  So why can’t we!   We do not deserve this kind of treatment.  We are people who want to succeed in our lives-  We want to see our hard deserved action recognized-  We want our words to be taken seriously, and we to want to be praised and validated- we want other to recognize our achievement without being locked out of the mainstream of life!  We want our lives to have meaning too!

We don’t want to just sit at home day in or day out, and stare at the four walls because we were blocked, conveniently, from earning a living, or getting a degree that we could have gotten if those professionals who call themselves professionals did not stand in our way, or label  us, or made a unsound ruling and judgment just because we are shrouded with an imperfect body, or mind… this does not give anybody the right to look down upon us, or judge us.

The Fight For What’s Right

To often in my life, I have not been taken seriously.  I have been looked down upon, and conveniently tossed aside because I was passionate about what I felt, and believed in, and how I wanted to expand my life.  Down deep within me, I wanted to be accepted in this world and participate in life just like everyone else-  I wanted my thoughts and feeling to matter, and I wanted to be considered just like everyone else.

But I was belittled, made fun of, and ostracized, I have walked the line, gone the distance, and climbed hurtles that most might think are the unthinkable!  I have stayed as positive and as strong as I could to survive and thrive amongst the rest!  Some how, some way I had to and still have to make a difference in my life, to be the best person I can be, and give back to life and all man kind what I have learned…

If I have to fight the rest of my life to succeed, I will- because there is no stopping, me!

What Does it Feel Like?

After Living a life with a physical disability of Cerebral Palsy, and a learning disability, dyslexia I realize many things.  First I realize how I have gone the extra mile in everything I have done and accomplished in my life.  Secondly, I’ve learned about being labeled, fighting the system, and coming out a winner with more self-worth, self confidence, and dignity to keep on keeping on-

I have had people show me their BIOS and prejudice  attitudes, and I have reasoned and maneuvered around, about, and above all the insensitivity’s of human nature.  I did not let people, places or things put there mark or classification on me!  I left them with a mark!  I left them with the teaching and knowledge: that I am like everyone else in this world.  I may have C.P. and a slight inconvenience, but I am just like you!  I have also instructed and imparted, by my deeds and words to be treated with dignity and respect.  I have taught and educated by the path that I have taken.  I have not only been assertive, but through my own tolerance, love, sincerity, kindness, and determination to light up and wake up this world.  Through my actions, I have climbed the highest mountain.  And I will continue to climb!  I will not sit back and lethargically let people step over me any time they wish.  I will teach by being me, compassion for all!

Why Can’t People Understand?

Today was another power punching day of more realization and lesson learning.  I wanted to write to make time to release and let go of all the things that took place in my day.  I ponder my soul in wonderment of why people cannot understand what “we” who have learning disabilities or physical disabilities go through to try and fit in to life and society.

We work 10 times harder to fit in, in order to make some kind of  normalcy of our life.  We do this for ourselves, just  to be included in the community of our world just to be and feel like “normal” people who fit in!  If man-kind only knew!  If they only new the effort we put forth!  If only they knew inwardly what we go through daily-  If they could feel what we feel what we feel every day of our lives-

If they had to cope and deal with the challenges we have before us, with our disabilities, and tried to put forth the effort we do, on a daily basis, physically, emotionally, and spiritually, I don’t think they could handle it!  I don’t think they could or would be able to keep up the brave front.  I don’t think they could constantly keep smiling.  I don’t think they could handle the inner emotions we go through- I really personally don’t think they could last very long!

What do you think?  I pose this question to all of you reading this entry.

A Growing Day

Today was a day full of challenges.  A day full of speaking up for myself, and a day trying to get my thoughts and feeling across to others.   It was a day packed with punch; as I dealt with difficult personalities while explaining my perception and situations as they occurred.

Even though it was very stressful, I was able to give to others in a kind and gentle way. I was able to give hope, and I was able to share from my heart that they are not alone in there feelings.  I was able to come through this day feeling grateful, and thankful.  I was also very grateful I had someone special to listen to me and my feelings so I could let them go.

You know, at times it’s not easy trying to speak up for yourself, being heard, respected, or treated equally.  One has to learn to accept others and be willing to agree to disagree and let be what needs to be.  Especially when you act, and do things just like any other person in this world, but your physical body looks different than the norm- because you have C. P. since 5 months old, and an invisible learning disability, that as much as you try to educate and explain to others, they just don’t ever get it!

Tell Me!

Today, I have been getting many email’s on blog entries, concerning learning disabilities. These blog entries are from other peoples blogs. One by one, I have been reading through them all.  And I am affected and effected by the things I have read.

You see, I have come a long way, and have triumphed over many of my life’s challenges as a person with Cerebral Palsy and a learning disability, but in this area, on my website, I have had trouble creating the kind of environment I think you would like. I have not been successfully able to engage or get other people with any kind of a disability to reach out to me, let alone communicate to me or my web site to share their feelings and thoughts.

Can you tell me what I am missing, or what I need to get beyond this point?

I am not sure why- but I realize that I can’t do it alone anymore, and that is why I am writing this entry.  I really would like to hear from you; as I need your  help.  I really need your input as I would like to create a special place for all of you to come  and, to interact with me, as well as others like ourselves!  I want this to be a place where you feel safe and comfortable.  I want this to be a place where you can let your hair down and be yourself!

Without any doubt or hesitation, I would like this place, to be a place where people from all over the world can come and share their feelings and stories:>)  It doesn’t matter what type of disability you have, because I feel we all have something to, give, share, and say!  I truly feel we can all make that difference.  We all can make this a better place for one-another, one person at a time, and touch peoples lives in the process.

I have searched my heart and soul, and have geared my entire life to helping others with physical disabilities. I have given unconditionally in all ways, and in all phases of my life.  Step by step I have tried to inspire, and to help motivate.  However, I am stumped, and am at a road block. I really could use your support and input.  As I would like to turn this problem around. Thus, I am writing and asking you for help.  I am reaching out to you by writing this blog.

I have tried in a number of different ways to get this message out, but have been un-successful in the process.  This time, I am hoping the response will be different.  So won’t you say hi:>)

I am hoping upon hope that I will here from you and receive an entry to this writing.  I would love to chat with you, and read your blog entries, your email’s, and your comments.  I  sincerely would like the opportunity to meet you, and talk with you!  I would like the chance to discuss ways to improve this area  and my site-  I like it to come alive-  I would love to have the pleasure to meet you, and get to know you, and see what life has been like for you, living with a disability.

Perhaps, if we are all willing to share our stories with one-another, we can truly help make this a better place for all concerned!  I genuinely believe this, and welcome all who are reading these entries.  I greet you alI to come and say hello, and introduce yourself to me. I will warmly be waiting to answer your messages!

With kind regards,

Karen

 

You may have C.P. and or a learning disability, or be a parent and family member who has a child, a sibling, or even be a cousin, or a aunt or uncle with a niece or nephew with some kind of physical impairment.  Some-how, some-way, you have been touched by someone in your life or someone you’ve met.  Thus, I welcome everyone…

Moreover, I welcome everyone else!  It does not matter if you have Polio, Scoliosis, Muscular Dystrophy, Multiple Scleroses, ADD, Developmental Disability, or any other disability I did not mention, as you are all individuals with feelings and emotions.  We all have hopes and dreams which we’d like to accomplish,, and areas that we’d like to grow and work through.  We feel like every other human being on this earth, but we are looked at differently.  So let’s change this!    Maybe, just maybe this would be the right place to do just that.

Won’t you consider helping me? I’d love to connect with you personally:>))))))))

The Quest to Help All

I have been doing a lot of research in the last couple of weeks on Learning Disabilities, and exercise programs for the disabled.  To my regret all I have found were mostly regular Yoga programs. Sadly, I have found nothing substantial in my search. I must tell you, that I am truly applauded after all these years.  The fact that there is little to no information, or programs out there geared especially for us with physical challenges show’s how little we have expanded our way of thinking. There is barely any information, let alone programs for individuals with physical limitation in some way or another.  Yes I found a few programs, on Yoga, but not enough to make a true difference in our society.

I ask you- when are we all going to work together for this vital cause?  Am I the only person out here that does such a thing? Where did everybody else go?  I ask you?  What have you found out there in this big expansive place we call the world? I’d be interested in hearing your response.

Until then>))))))

FYI, I am very happy to announce that my chair aerobics video is now available for viewing on my web site.

Graduating Class Of 2007 Speech

Dear Ms. Tompson, Mr. Matz, the faculty, family, friends and, finally but not least, the graduating class of 2007. I am honored to stand before you today as a guest speaker, and, an alumnus of Widney High School. My name is Karen Lynn, and I am here today, to empower each and every one of you as you step out into a new chapter of your lives. A journey you’ll one day look back upon and think about. As you go out from these doors, a whole new world awaits you. Here, things will be quit new and different.

Some of these new experiences might be frightening and scary, while others, challenging and joyous. But it is all a part of living life. It is how you take each life experience you have, and how you grow and develop your inner character. It is the process of becoming the person you choose to become. So, don’t be frighten or nervous, and don’t let the world and others decide your course- It is your journey; that only you can decide and build upon. It is you and you alone to stare your vessel in a positive direction. It is a time of new hopes, new dreams and new inspirations. It is a time to shape, a time to build, and a time to learn and reap the fruits of your life. It is a time to stack one experience upon another like a beautiful creation.

I remember those days as if they were yesterday. I wondered what I was going to become, and how I was going to succeed in life while having Cerebral Palsy and a learning disability (dyslexia) which made learning very difficult, arduous, and grueling. It was not easy to retain information, write a clear constructed sentence, or do the simplest mathematical problems. I struggle inwardly saying little or nothing to anyone. I remember when this school was first built and when we moved from Grand Avenue and Washington Blvd. I remember these halls as if it were yesterday.

I remember the bells ringing to signal when one period ended and another one began. I remember the lunch lines, and I recall the many hours sitting in my seat, riding to and from school on an apricot colored school bus. I also remember my drivers training classes and learning to drive in driver’s Ed. I bring to mind the day I stood in front of my locker, all alone, in quiet solitude thinking… “How am I ever going to get through this next test Mr. Howard is giving in science class?” But some how I did! I also remember our basketball games, our Kodiak team, our field days, and trying out for cheerleader and our wonderful musicals Mr. Howard would bring to life. You know what else? I even remember being valedictorian of my graduating class and standing here at this same podium.

I had many challenges before me. But something way down deep inside of my being would not let me quit- I was determined. No- I was driven! And I still am to this very day. I had a tenacious desire to keep on keeping on. I had made this decision and I was never going to give up on myself no matter how tough the tough got going. So after graduating my mother and I decided it was best for me to get some guidance and help from The California Department of Rehabilitation. Maybe they could help guide me into something I loved to do. Maybe someone would be knowledgeable enough, and in tune enough, that they had the special ability to pick up on some ones needs, wants, talents and desires and direct them in a positive way to make it happen. It would have been nice to be given a chance, and to be counseled in that way, to a career of my choosing. Instead, I was evaluated.

My father had died three years earlier, and I held my head high in the same fashion as I did when he passed on. I was like a worrier, who was standing tall with her metal armor at hand and her Trojan horse by her side, while being torn apart emotionally; as I was given their decision of being labeled mentally retarded and sent to a workshop. I smiled outwardly, and did my 6 months training program, and moved on and away from this experience, but inwardly I was devastated because I knew I could learn like everyone else if only given a chance to prove myself. Even though I was scared, and tattered, I kept going. I dusted myself off, stood up tall, and held my head high with my hopes and dreams still in tack.

My mother, being the wonderful person that she was; called and set up an interview for me, with the personnel director of Ohrbach’s Department stores, on the Miracle Mile. I was hired immediately and, went to work in sales, as a sales girl. Within a short period of time I was promoted to switchboard operator. I wanted to be like any other so called “normal person”. But I was stared at, and humiliated, and looked down upon many a times. However, each and every time I was emotionally bruised and put through the test, I became stronger through each experience and each altering event.

To make my story short, at twenty-five years of age, I wanted to go back to school to attain my degree in dance therapy, Recreation and English, because I now was an assistant recreation director in a half way house for people with mental illness, and I had an enormous thirst to learn. But for a second time in a row, I was labeled mentally retarded due to another IQ test, and another counselor that just could not see beyond her confines and judgments, which does not, nor cannot depict learning disabilities. That was when she told me that if I wanted to go to college I would have to take 12 units a semester just like all the other student that took classes. I knew that that was not the truth, but a big bunch of horse manure. I left her office steaming mad. I had had enough. I was ready to take on the world. I was sick and tired of being put through the ringer, humiliated, looked down upon, disrespected, and shoved into a quiet corner where I would be a nice little girl and be a vegetable of the state for ever more. It was very easy for them to label me, because our system is specifically designed for bureaucrats that unfortunately still exist today.

I was on fire! That was when I wrote letter after letter, and made phone call after phone call with a willingness that could not be broken no matter what anyone said or tried to do. I took on the fight of my life. I was ready to challenge the system with every breath in my being. I knew at that moment that I had to make my way in this world in order to be a productive person in society. I knew that my Mama was not going to be here forever to take care of me. Thus, I had no choice but to move forward and face each and every obstacle that came in my path. I knew I had to carve out a place for myself in this world, and I knew that this was the moment. So, without any hesitation, I fought with every ounce of courage in my heart and spirit. That was the moment when I took California Department of Rehabilitation to, The Department of Health, Education, and welfare, where 3 years later, I receive the joyous news that I won the first Civil Rights Case in the state of California; and that my case now opened the doors for all disabled people under section 504 of the Rehabilitation Act of 1973. I was also told by the same organization…”how could a disabled person with Cerebral Palsy teach other people to dance” Well, my dear friends, I am here today, to tell you that I do that as well- I continue to teach. I adore working with others, and I give because of what was once so freely given to me. I have been teaching adaptive aerobics since 1976, and dancing since age 3 and ½.

Whenever anyone told me I could not achieve something I wanted to do, I went out and achieved it with effort, skill, reason, discipline, and 4 courage. I did what ever It took to get ahead; including driving over 350 miles a week to get special hand-eye- ear motor coordination training. I listen to my own melody and made my own music.

I not only went back to college, after winning my decree, and received my AA degree in English, which, by the way, took me 5 years, but I laboriously worked 8 hours a day or more with my wonderful mentor and tooter. I became an advocate, for the disabled, and sat on the Executive Board of Protection and Advocacy Inc. I also won second prize in the Kaleidoscope Literary Prose Fiction Art Award of 1983 while in college. I also built my own website to help others.at:www.whispersofhope.org. And last year, I became a published author of The Broken Hoof. I believe I was given this path to shield, guard, and defend others from this terrible plot of discrimination.

I sincerely wish each and every one of you graduates graduating today a full and rewarding, prosperous life. I wish you all that you wish for yourself and more. I will close for now, but remember you can do ANYTHING you put your mind towards doing. Believe in yourself when no one else will. Just think of me. If I can do it, so can you. It’s all in the palms of your hands, in your attitude, and in the power of your own beliefs and thoughts. So go out from here today and make a wonderful, full life, to look back upon. Thank You for allowing me to share this special experience with you and taking the time to share a bit of mine. Thank you.