Whispers of Hope – Karen Lynn-Chlup

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The Fight For What’s Right

To often in my life, I have not been taken seriously.  I have been looked down upon, and conveniently tossed aside because I was passionate about what I felt, and believed in, and how I wanted to expand my life.  Down deep within me, I wanted to be accepted in this world and participate in life just like everyone else-  I wanted my thoughts and feeling to matter, and I wanted to be considered just like everyone else.

But I was belittled, made fun of, and ostracized, I have walked the line, gone the distance, and climbed hurtles that most might think are the unthinkable!  I have stayed as positive and as strong as I could to survive and thrive amongst the rest!  Some how, some way I had to and still have to make a difference in my life, to be the best person I can be, and give back to life and all man kind what I have learned…

If I have to fight the rest of my life to succeed, I will- because there is no stopping, me!

What Does it Feel Like?

After Living a life with a physical disability of Cerebral Palsy, and a learning disability, dyslexia I realize many things.  First I realize how I have gone the extra mile in everything I have done and accomplished in my life.  Secondly, I’ve learned about being labeled, fighting the system, and coming out a winner with more self-worth, self confidence, and dignity to keep on keeping on-

I have had people show me their BIOS and prejudice  attitudes, and I have reasoned and maneuvered around, about, and above all the insensitivity’s of human nature.  I did not let people, places or things put there mark or classification on me!  I left them with a mark!  I left them with the teaching and knowledge: that I am like everyone else in this world.  I may have C.P. and a slight inconvenience, but I am just like you!  I have also instructed and imparted, by my deeds and words to be treated with dignity and respect.  I have taught and educated by the path that I have taken.  I have not only been assertive, but through my own tolerance, love, sincerity, kindness, and determination to light up and wake up this world.  Through my actions, I have climbed the highest mountain.  And I will continue to climb!  I will not sit back and lethargically let people step over me any time they wish.  I will teach by being me, compassion for all!

Why Can’t People Understand?

Today was another power punching day of more realization and lesson learning.  I wanted to write to make time to release and let go of all the things that took place in my day.  I ponder my soul in wonderment of why people cannot understand what “we” who have learning disabilities or physical disabilities go through to try and fit in to life and society.

We work 10 times harder to fit in, in order to make some kind of  normalcy of our life.  We do this for ourselves, just  to be included in the community of our world just to be and feel like “normal” people who fit in!  If man-kind only knew!  If they only new the effort we put forth!  If only they knew inwardly what we go through daily-  If they could feel what we feel what we feel every day of our lives-

If they had to cope and deal with the challenges we have before us, with our disabilities, and tried to put forth the effort we do, on a daily basis, physically, emotionally, and spiritually, I don’t think they could handle it!  I don’t think they could or would be able to keep up the brave front.  I don’t think they could constantly keep smiling.  I don’t think they could handle the inner emotions we go through- I really personally don’t think they could last very long!

What do you think?  I pose this question to all of you reading this entry.

A Growing Day

Today was a day full of challenges.  A day full of speaking up for myself, and a day trying to get my thoughts and feeling across to others.   It was a day packed with punch; as I dealt with difficult personalities while explaining my perception and situations as they occurred.

Even though it was very stressful, I was able to give to others in a kind and gentle way. I was able to give hope, and I was able to share from my heart that they are not alone in there feelings.  I was able to come through this day feeling grateful, and thankful.  I was also very grateful I had someone special to listen to me and my feelings so I could let them go.

You know, at times it’s not easy trying to speak up for yourself, being heard, respected, or treated equally.  One has to learn to accept others and be willing to agree to disagree and let be what needs to be.  Especially when you act, and do things just like any other person in this world, but your physical body looks different than the norm- because you have C. P. since 5 months old, and an invisible learning disability, that as much as you try to educate and explain to others, they just don’t ever get it!

Tell Me!

Today, I have been getting many email’s on blog entries, concerning learning disabilities. These blog entries are from other peoples blogs. One by one, I have been reading through them all.  And I am affected and effected by the things I have read.

You see, I have come a long way, and have triumphed over many of my life’s challenges as a person with Cerebral Palsy and a learning disability, but in this area, on my website, I have had trouble creating the kind of environment I think you would like. I have not been successfully able to engage or get other people with any kind of a disability to reach out to me, let alone communicate to me or my web site to share their feelings and thoughts.

Can you tell me what I am missing, or what I need to get beyond this point?

I am not sure why- but I realize that I can’t do it alone anymore, and that is why I am writing this entry.  I really would like to hear from you; as I need your  help.  I really need your input as I would like to create a special place for all of you to come  and, to interact with me, as well as others like ourselves!  I want this to be a place where you feel safe and comfortable.  I want this to be a place where you can let your hair down and be yourself!

Without any doubt or hesitation, I would like this place, to be a place where people from all over the world can come and share their feelings and stories:>)  It doesn’t matter what type of disability you have, because I feel we all have something to, give, share, and say!  I truly feel we can all make that difference.  We all can make this a better place for one-another, one person at a time, and touch peoples lives in the process.

I have searched my heart and soul, and have geared my entire life to helping others with physical disabilities. I have given unconditionally in all ways, and in all phases of my life.  Step by step I have tried to inspire, and to help motivate.  However, I am stumped, and am at a road block. I really could use your support and input.  As I would like to turn this problem around. Thus, I am writing and asking you for help.  I am reaching out to you by writing this blog.

I have tried in a number of different ways to get this message out, but have been un-successful in the process.  This time, I am hoping the response will be different.  So won’t you say hi:>)

I am hoping upon hope that I will here from you and receive an entry to this writing.  I would love to chat with you, and read your blog entries, your email’s, and your comments.  I  sincerely would like the opportunity to meet you, and talk with you!  I would like the chance to discuss ways to improve this area  and my site-  I like it to come alive-  I would love to have the pleasure to meet you, and get to know you, and see what life has been like for you, living with a disability.

Perhaps, if we are all willing to share our stories with one-another, we can truly help make this a better place for all concerned!  I genuinely believe this, and welcome all who are reading these entries.  I greet you alI to come and say hello, and introduce yourself to me. I will warmly be waiting to answer your messages!

With kind regards,

Karen

 

You may have C.P. and or a learning disability, or be a parent and family member who has a child, a sibling, or even be a cousin, or a aunt or uncle with a niece or nephew with some kind of physical impairment.  Some-how, some-way, you have been touched by someone in your life or someone you’ve met.  Thus, I welcome everyone…

Moreover, I welcome everyone else!  It does not matter if you have Polio, Scoliosis, Muscular Dystrophy, Multiple Scleroses, ADD, Developmental Disability, or any other disability I did not mention, as you are all individuals with feelings and emotions.  We all have hopes and dreams which we’d like to accomplish,, and areas that we’d like to grow and work through.  We feel like every other human being on this earth, but we are looked at differently.  So let’s change this!    Maybe, just maybe this would be the right place to do just that.

Won’t you consider helping me? I’d love to connect with you personally:>))))))))

The Quest to Help All

I have been doing a lot of research in the last couple of weeks on Learning Disabilities, and exercise programs for the disabled.  To my regret all I have found were mostly regular Yoga programs. Sadly, I have found nothing substantial in my search. I must tell you, that I am truly applauded after all these years.  The fact that there is little to no information, or programs out there geared especially for us with physical challenges show’s how little we have expanded our way of thinking. There is barely any information, let alone programs for individuals with physical limitation in some way or another.  Yes I found a few programs, on Yoga, but not enough to make a true difference in our society.

I ask you- when are we all going to work together for this vital cause?  Am I the only person out here that does such a thing? Where did everybody else go?  I ask you?  What have you found out there in this big expansive place we call the world? I’d be interested in hearing your response.

Until then>))))))

FYI, I am very happy to announce that my chair aerobics video is now available for viewing on my web site.

Graduating Class Of 2007 Speech

Dear Ms. Tompson, Mr. Matz, the faculty, family, friends and, finally but not least, the graduating class of 2007. I am honored to stand before you today as a guest speaker, and, an alumnus of Widney High School. My name is Karen Lynn, and I am here today, to empower each and every one of you as you step out into a new chapter of your lives. A journey you’ll one day look back upon and think about. As you go out from these doors, a whole new world awaits you. Here, things will be quit new and different.

Some of these new experiences might be frightening and scary, while others, challenging and joyous. But it is all a part of living life. It is how you take each life experience you have, and how you grow and develop your inner character. It is the process of becoming the person you choose to become. So, don’t be frighten or nervous, and don’t let the world and others decide your course- It is your journey; that only you can decide and build upon. It is you and you alone to stare your vessel in a positive direction. It is a time of new hopes, new dreams and new inspirations. It is a time to shape, a time to build, and a time to learn and reap the fruits of your life. It is a time to stack one experience upon another like a beautiful creation.

I remember those days as if they were yesterday. I wondered what I was going to become, and how I was going to succeed in life while having Cerebral Palsy and a learning disability (dyslexia) which made learning very difficult, arduous, and grueling. It was not easy to retain information, write a clear constructed sentence, or do the simplest mathematical problems. I struggle inwardly saying little or nothing to anyone. I remember when this school was first built and when we moved from Grand Avenue and Washington Blvd. I remember these halls as if it were yesterday.

I remember the bells ringing to signal when one period ended and another one began. I remember the lunch lines, and I recall the many hours sitting in my seat, riding to and from school on an apricot colored school bus. I also remember my drivers training classes and learning to drive in driver’s Ed. I bring to mind the day I stood in front of my locker, all alone, in quiet solitude thinking… “How am I ever going to get through this next test Mr. Howard is giving in science class?” But some how I did! I also remember our basketball games, our Kodiak team, our field days, and trying out for cheerleader and our wonderful musicals Mr. Howard would bring to life. You know what else? I even remember being valedictorian of my graduating class and standing here at this same podium.

I had many challenges before me. But something way down deep inside of my being would not let me quit- I was determined. No- I was driven! And I still am to this very day. I had a tenacious desire to keep on keeping on. I had made this decision and I was never going to give up on myself no matter how tough the tough got going. So after graduating my mother and I decided it was best for me to get some guidance and help from The California Department of Rehabilitation. Maybe they could help guide me into something I loved to do. Maybe someone would be knowledgeable enough, and in tune enough, that they had the special ability to pick up on some ones needs, wants, talents and desires and direct them in a positive way to make it happen. It would have been nice to be given a chance, and to be counseled in that way, to a career of my choosing. Instead, I was evaluated.

My father had died three years earlier, and I held my head high in the same fashion as I did when he passed on. I was like a worrier, who was standing tall with her metal armor at hand and her Trojan horse by her side, while being torn apart emotionally; as I was given their decision of being labeled mentally retarded and sent to a workshop. I smiled outwardly, and did my 6 months training program, and moved on and away from this experience, but inwardly I was devastated because I knew I could learn like everyone else if only given a chance to prove myself. Even though I was scared, and tattered, I kept going. I dusted myself off, stood up tall, and held my head high with my hopes and dreams still in tack.

My mother, being the wonderful person that she was; called and set up an interview for me, with the personnel director of Ohrbach’s Department stores, on the Miracle Mile. I was hired immediately and, went to work in sales, as a sales girl. Within a short period of time I was promoted to switchboard operator. I wanted to be like any other so called “normal person”. But I was stared at, and humiliated, and looked down upon many a times. However, each and every time I was emotionally bruised and put through the test, I became stronger through each experience and each altering event.

To make my story short, at twenty-five years of age, I wanted to go back to school to attain my degree in dance therapy, Recreation and English, because I now was an assistant recreation director in a half way house for people with mental illness, and I had an enormous thirst to learn. But for a second time in a row, I was labeled mentally retarded due to another IQ test, and another counselor that just could not see beyond her confines and judgments, which does not, nor cannot depict learning disabilities. That was when she told me that if I wanted to go to college I would have to take 12 units a semester just like all the other student that took classes. I knew that that was not the truth, but a big bunch of horse manure. I left her office steaming mad. I had had enough. I was ready to take on the world. I was sick and tired of being put through the ringer, humiliated, looked down upon, disrespected, and shoved into a quiet corner where I would be a nice little girl and be a vegetable of the state for ever more. It was very easy for them to label me, because our system is specifically designed for bureaucrats that unfortunately still exist today.

I was on fire! That was when I wrote letter after letter, and made phone call after phone call with a willingness that could not be broken no matter what anyone said or tried to do. I took on the fight of my life. I was ready to challenge the system with every breath in my being. I knew at that moment that I had to make my way in this world in order to be a productive person in society. I knew that my Mama was not going to be here forever to take care of me. Thus, I had no choice but to move forward and face each and every obstacle that came in my path. I knew I had to carve out a place for myself in this world, and I knew that this was the moment. So, without any hesitation, I fought with every ounce of courage in my heart and spirit. That was the moment when I took California Department of Rehabilitation to, The Department of Health, Education, and welfare, where 3 years later, I receive the joyous news that I won the first Civil Rights Case in the state of California; and that my case now opened the doors for all disabled people under section 504 of the Rehabilitation Act of 1973. I was also told by the same organization…”how could a disabled person with Cerebral Palsy teach other people to dance” Well, my dear friends, I am here today, to tell you that I do that as well- I continue to teach. I adore working with others, and I give because of what was once so freely given to me. I have been teaching adaptive aerobics since 1976, and dancing since age 3 and ½.

Whenever anyone told me I could not achieve something I wanted to do, I went out and achieved it with effort, skill, reason, discipline, and 4 courage. I did what ever It took to get ahead; including driving over 350 miles a week to get special hand-eye- ear motor coordination training. I listen to my own melody and made my own music.

I not only went back to college, after winning my decree, and received my AA degree in English, which, by the way, took me 5 years, but I laboriously worked 8 hours a day or more with my wonderful mentor and tooter. I became an advocate, for the disabled, and sat on the Executive Board of Protection and Advocacy Inc. I also won second prize in the Kaleidoscope Literary Prose Fiction Art Award of 1983 while in college. I also built my own website to help others.at:www.whispersofhope.org. And last year, I became a published author of The Broken Hoof. I believe I was given this path to shield, guard, and defend others from this terrible plot of discrimination.

I sincerely wish each and every one of you graduates graduating today a full and rewarding, prosperous life. I wish you all that you wish for yourself and more. I will close for now, but remember you can do ANYTHING you put your mind towards doing. Believe in yourself when no one else will. Just think of me. If I can do it, so can you. It’s all in the palms of your hands, in your attitude, and in the power of your own beliefs and thoughts. So go out from here today and make a wonderful, full life, to look back upon. Thank You for allowing me to share this special experience with you and taking the time to share a bit of mine. Thank you.

In a Days Work

A few days ago, I went back to my old high school to be a guest speaker.  I spoke about where I came from, and where I am today.  It has been 38 years since I walked those halls.  And in the process, I was deeply touched.  Torched beyond words. Touched because of the person I’ve become, and touched because of all the strength I have had to keep moving forward.  Touched, because I can see the many accomplished I have attained to give to others so freely-

Nothing, Nothing my dear friends, is like giving unconditionally to other’s and seeing a smile of happiness, joy, and empowerment, on their faces, or the applause they give you in return.  Nothing, no money, no competition, no greed, no nothing can give you that kind of warmth, fulfillment, love, devotion, or that inner peace, happiness, and satisfaction you receives when you have given of yourself completely, and from your heart utterly.

Since I Last Wrote

Since I last wrote, my website has gone through a major overhaul, and has been completely re-built. Now that Whispers is completely re-constructed, we can move forward with ease:>) I am so happy I am back, and that my site is finally the way I like it:>)  I am thrilled beyond words, and I owe my deepest thanks to those “special individuals” who helped me to re-designed it.

I also want to take this moment to thank all of you as well. I know my site has had its twists and turns, ups and down’s; but all of you have been so very patient with me, and I want to personally thank you for your continued support, and endurance through this whole process.  I know you probably have wondered what was taking so long, or why it kept changing face’s and design plans for the last 8 years, but I’m here, writing to you today, to tell you that all is completed… and I want to personally thank you for going the distance with me.  It has been a long, drawn out process and journey, but we are now home safe.  All is well and could not be better:>)

I want you to know that you have been my life line- you are the ones I do this for:>)  you are my purpose…

Therefore, I truly want to apologize if, in the last 4 months to 2 years or more- if I have caused you ANY inconvenience at all.  I promise this won’t ever happen again…  but I could not proceed or live comfortably within my own skin, until I knew that all these changes took place, and I was happy, at ease, and at peace and harmony with not only the way whispers looked, but I also needed it to feel warm and cozy.  I can honestly say that Whispers of Hope always had something missing to me-  thus, I had to find its perfect look, its perfectly written and grammatically constructed content, and, I had to find the people who I could turn to who were creatively able to enable my desires to be arranged, constructed, and displayed.

With must pride, I am proud to announce that Whispers of Hope is completed to date, and is just the way I always dreamed of it being!  We can all move forward from here.  Now  that everything is secure, and I have taken all the necessary actions, we can all rest easy now and have a blast!  We can all post to our hearts content.  Read what ever we want to read, and just unwind by being ourselves-  We don’t have to worry anymore or put on any false fronts!  We can let our true feeling be known.

So my dear friends and new viewers, feel free to read and write what ever you feel- And, tell me exactly what you think about the all New and Improved Whispers of Hope.:) or what you’d like to see on here.  I welcome your thoughts and opinions.

BTW, In the next few weeks, I will be placing some exercise videos on here for you, as well as a personal video.  They were made especially to empower you-  So keep your eyes peeled- They will be posted shortly:>)))))))

Until then…

Convenient Labeling

Many a times I have thought about all the labels we dish out to man kind in our society. And what a stigma this leave within our being. Its a terrible one, which leaves its scars and marks in our minds and hearts.

They have labels for everything now a days.  When I was a child I was diagnosed as left side hemiplegic Cerebral Palsy, and  years later a learning disability.  I was never labeled anything else, not until the 70S 80S and 90S!  Besides being labeled, it is emotionally degrading and humiliating. I know.  I was labeled three different times –

It was very humiliating, because I knew inside myself I wasn’t a classification.  I was a human being! I am a person!

Thinking about these words make me cringe inside!  As I am sure it does to other people who have been put in the same predicament as I and were classified as something they really are not-

How can each and every one of us do something to change what is going on in our world for the children of today?  How can we stop this from continuing to happen?  How can we make a difference.

I didn’t like or ever agree, use, or consider myself any of those things that were harshly put upon me!  I fought the system and won, but so many people don’t

What do you think?

I have gone and done far more then what these counselors of mine thought of me and my ability that at all in my life.