I wrote this poem in 1997 about another friend I had for a short while, a lovely Australian man. We met online and our friendship grew into love as I loved him like I love all my friends. We got very close and enjoyed deep conversations on all levels.

Then, he wanted more and I couldn’t give more because I was married. But never the less, he came all the way from Sidney to visit my husband and me. He stayed for two weeks, and we all had a wonderful time. In fact, after seeing the happiness that Chris and I shared, he wanted to try marriage again. But his last words before he left made my heart sink.

He said, “I hope I can find someone who loves me as much as Chris loves you.”

I knew he would not see me ever again, especially when he did not give me his phone number or say let’s stay in touch. In the pit of my stomach, I knew he didn’t want to remain friends. Not at all. In a way, I felt like I had been used.

However, I did see him once more, when he and his fiancee changed planes at LAX. He let me know when they would arrive, so Chris and I drove over and waited for their plane to land. The fiancee was meek and quiet. She hardly said a word, and I wondered if this was what the Australian wanted, not someone outgoing like me.

I waved goodbye as they boarded their departing flight, never to hear from him again. To this day, I wish him the best.

LOVE WITH YOU

I have loved once,
And now again.
But even though time,
And place,
And circumstances
Have changed our lives,
Our destination together
Has clearly been defined.

No matter what anyone says,
You will always be mine,
Pure and simple
Sweet refine!

Our precious path,
We thought not twice,
Sharing, caring,
And building many
Castles in the sky!

We took each day
With a carefree approach,
Thinking not what the future
Would bring forth!

Then, one day,
Our hearts heard
The news, as
We stood still
Suspended in time!

We trembled and cried
And could not stop
The tears that flowed!

With each raw emotion,
And each sorrow we shed,
We tossed and turned,
Only to rise as
We took step by step
Ceasing without end
Enduring all
Only to stay
Strong for us all!

We asked for strength,
An unshakable strength,
To fortify our most
Fearless faith!

Then that moment came,
We were faced with the unknown
We knew the heavens above
Were taking us home!

So you see
My love,
My sweet man,
Of mine,
This dreadful thing,
Can no longer linger in thine!

For you will soon see
The universe and
The heavens above!

Have faith,
My darling,
In the Heavens on High,
No matter where,
No matter when,
No matter why!

Yield not to temptation,
As it is always close
At hand,
It is within your heart
To taste the sweetness
Again!

My love for you
Is pure and simple,
It will never end.
It’s a continuous circle!

It will withstand
Countless heartthrobs
Holding your sweet-tempered spirit,
Peaceful, within the palms of mine
As I help your kindred soul
Through your flight in time!

Serve strong these shadows unknown,
As Spirit divine will take you home!

He will enlighten our path,
In his sweet given time.
This, which comes before us
Is a test, you see!

He will make all things
Whole, bright, and new for thee!

He will sweeten the stones
Before each step we take,
With a soft and delicate shimmer,
Shining down upon us,
Making all the dreams
Which we once dreamed together
Come true.

We will be grateful,
And will always read His
Scriptures in the sand!